Mommy's Musings: He who never slumbers...
If you have known us for over 10 minutes you know that sleep is a rare commodity in our home. Hot Jeff gets up at 4:00 for work every morning, Emily is still waking in the night to nurse and Samuel is on a complete and total sleep boycott ever since he moved from his crib to a bed. Not only is this pathetic but its ironic because I LOVE to sleep. I can sleep anywhere, anytime. I fell asleep at Disney World... So here I am now with these crazy kids and I find myself awake more than asleep.
Last night I was not sleeping. For once everyone else was but I was not. I had so much on my mind, so many loved ones who are hurting that I was praying for and worrying over. I felt such comfort that my Heavenly Father was up also. "He will not let your foot slip--He who watches over you will not slumber; indeed, He who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep". As I thought about these words I thought about how I behave when I'm tired: cranky, impatient, unkind, selfish and how incredibly opposite that is of God. In his mysterious holiness, Elohim the strong One, never sleeps and yet remains faithful, loving, good, patient, and kind.
And so tonight on the heels of today's struggles and bad news I go to bed heavy hearted again; I anticipate I'll have trouble sleeping as my mind struggles to quiet down. I hold this truth close to my heart though: "My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from Him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; He is my fortress and I will never be shaken".